frustrated

Today marked the end of The Shrinking Jeans, Shrink into Summer challenge. I admit, i haven't been keeping up on it like i should be. I didn't hit my goal during those two months. I was about 2.5 lbs off. I did however lose 7.4 pounds. And frankly a loss is a loss right? I didn't come out on top of what i started out as so i consider it a win.

Also, i earned this:

a while back. I honestly can't wait till i trade it in for a 20lb loss button. Just a few more pounds to go.

I beleive it's time to get back into the swing of things again. So, here go a few confessions:

*I haven't run for over 2 weeks now and i feel like i'm completely out of it.

In fact, i haven't done any exercising for quite some time now.

I'm in need of some serious motivation.

*I haven't done any tracking of points on WW for almost that long.

It's showing in my weight loss... or lack there of...

Tomarrow starts a new week. A perfect time to start new don't you think?

*I think i've given up on my goal to run/walk the 5 mile milk run in July.

It seems so beyond my reach right now.

*I just bought 2 bags of puffy Cheetos yesterday.

Sadly, that's all i had for dinner last night too (although i didn't eat the whole bag(s))

*I'm finding that with the warmer weather also comes a greater challenge to eat right.

I've got summer cravings coming in hard, and most of them aren't exactly the best. I'm hoping that once my garden starts throwing out it's bounty, things will get easier.

So... that's it, i guess. I'm a bit frustrated with my lack of motivation right now. I'm hoping that swift kick in the rear end is in my near future, i could really use it.

Stubborn Stubborn little man and a weightloss thoughts

First off..... i'm sure Sam is not going to appreciate this too much when he gets older. But.... meh......

Sam by far is my hardest to pottytrain. He is stubborn. To the fullest. I've got people on both sides saying that he's, both, not ready or why isn't he trained yet. Truth be told... i'm a bit lazy. I'm not in such a rush to potty train him. I think that, maybe, if i put it off, and he's ready.... it'll be easy-peasy. So... i've put my big girl pants on and decided to stop being so lazy and get to it. And... he's ready, he really is. He lets us know when he's wet, when he's gone, and he does't like to sit in wet/dirty diapers. But the fact that i thought i'd be easy with him when he was ready was so far from the truth. The boy is STUBBORN!!!!!!! He's killing me! I guess i expected a few days tops but, *sigh* not so. Right now we (i) are trying the naked approach. Sorry for all those who come to visit me in this stage.... Sam now answers the door in the nude (or at the very most, a shirt since is IS winter).

It's worked well, that is until today. In which he proceeded to make a mess of things while i was otherwise occupied in the other room. I guess it was a bit my fault. I'm not feeling the best right now... a bit green and currently hoping i dont' have a stomach bug. I knew he needed to go potty, and he wanted me to stay and keep him company. But my stomach had other ideas and being the person i am, i didn't want to loose my breakfast in front of him. Needless to say, when i come out, he decided the kitchen floor was a great place. I know, i know... not a good a good visual at all. But for the record... i AM trying. I'm determined to get rid of diapers. Not only are we so incredibly tired of buying diapers, we've decided that diapers are just way too expensive and are eating away at the slowing income coming in. I realize Sam doesn't understand that but it's motivation enough for us to be serious about it now.

Next Samuel project? loosing the binkie!!!

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As for the weightloss adventures... it's VERY slow going. Almost 2 weeks from my public admition and i'm down only 3 lbs.... which yo-yo throughout the day. I swear if i weight myself tonight, i would have gained those 3lbs back. At one time, i was even down a full 4 lbs. I totally thought that the weight would start coming off and regularly. Especially when i got serious about what was going in my mouth. Things like totally kicking the Mt. Dew, started drinking water (96ozs... every day without fail, well... except for today maybe), taking out the yummy white bread/products and replacing it with multi-grain (and still quite yummy, yet i still CRAVE white bread) bread/products every time i can. A biggie right now is me moving a lot more every day. There aren't many days when i haven't hit the treadmill for at least a 30 minute brisk walk. And the Wii Fit is a biggie right now too. It's been 26 days and i've only missed 5 days. Needless to say, this is going to be a lot harder than i thought. I'm not giving up hope though. I'm determined to loose the weight. I've got great info (i totally suggest Bob Greene's Best Life Diet book. It's a bit of a different approach to weight loss but great info) and good motivation. But to step it up a bit, I've decided that i'll be joining Weight Watchers Online. I'm hoping that will give me a bit more of the bump i need.

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Yes, i just did do that. I'm going to make myself accountable. I'm completely serious about doing this. Because, seriously, i'm tied at my highest weight EVER. That even includes every time i was pregnant (but, i'm thinking that doesn't really count since pregnancy and i don't get along very well. Pregnancy always seems to kill my body). But... there it is. And i just want to put it out there, that this isn't just about loosing the weight. I realize it isn't all about how much i weight, but it's about how i feel. But somehow, the two seem to go hand in hand don't they.

I've been at it "seriously" for two weeks straight (not being serious about it, i've been at it for a few months). That means doing some kind of something to get me moving and getting my heart rate up (love that Wii fit! Although i feel a bit retarted sometimes not being able to do the strengh training. I am that out of shape). I've been eating with the right mind frame(although at times not all good foods go into my mouth). I've been drinking water. LOTS of water.

Today i went out and purchased me a scale that actually works (thus the title of my post). It was getting frustrating seeing my weight jump all over the place with my old scales, and that's just from stepping off and getting right back on. That, and i KNEW that my bathroom scales were just plain off. The proof is in the difference between my scales and the doctors office scales. Sure, i know there will be a slight difference, but 7-10lbs is just crazy. I decided that if i'm going to do this right, i'm going to do it right all the way around.

So now that it's out for the world, i'm hoping that this is going to be a great for motivation. Hopefully there'll be enough people out there calling me out on it.

apparently, i need all the help i can get

Since Kim is my girl, my support person. The person who i check in with regularly. I thought i'd copy this from her blog to here to see how i do.

… About Small Eating Changes
1. Water, water, water, water. (Your skin will look great, too!)
*i'm up to at least 96oz a day. Sometimes more, never less.
2. Order half portions at restaurants, or share a full portion with somebody. Or ask for a "to-go" container when you order your food, and pack up half the portion before you even start eating.
*ughh. we rarely eat out now. But when we do, i usually can't eat a full plate anyways and have a take home box
3. Cut back on butter and mayo.
*i REALLY need to do this. I LOVE my mayo and butter... but so does the rest of my family. I think DarRell would kill me if i cut back on these. Even going to low/no fat, i just might be disowned. I got to figure out a way to work for me and still make everyone happy.
4. Limit fried foods to once or twice per week.
*HUGE downfall for me. The greasier the better. I didn't realize this until i thought back on the past two weeks of meals..... NOT GOOD.
5. Use less or no sugar in your coffee or tea.
*no biggie there...... don't drink either (although the tea is good sometimes)
6. Replace ground beef with meatless products or ground turkey.
*sigh..... no ground beef? Meatless? those veggi boca burgers aren't too bad sometimes.
7. Try at least one new food every week. If you're bored with what you're eating, you're more likely to give up.
*it's worth a try. I just get tired of wasting food cause i have to cook for 5 and 3 are picky.
8. Eat fresh, raw veggies with sandwiches instead of chips.
*working on that RIGHT now! yayay me! although those darn Cheetos are the death of me.
9. Measure your portions until you're sure you know what a cup, a half-cup, and a tablespoon look like. This will help you practice portion control, an essential key to weight-loss success.
*working on this with the easier things like cereal and stuff i can control.
10. Try not to drink high-calorie beverages.
*did i mention that Mt. Dew is also the death of me?
11. Dip your fork in a side of salad dressing before each bite instead of pouring it directly on your salad. You'll find that you are satisfied with much less than you usually put on.
*ya... i've tried this. it works when i do it. Otherwise, i just eat too much.
12. Find healthy alternatives to all your favorite foods.
*is there a healthy alternative? gotta find them
13. If you don't really love it, don't eat it.
*definatly a problem. I eat it if its sitting there. Doesn't matter if it's not my favorite.
14. Never eat out of a bag or box. Take out a measured/counted quantity of food and put it in a bowl. This way, you know exactly how much you're having.
*Cheetos again...... gotta get rid of them apparently
15. Always eat something for breakfast.
*YAYAYAY for me! i'm actually doing this!!!!!
16. Read food labels. Check serving sizes.
*got to get better at this but i am aware and do check occasionally
17. Add vegetables to everything.
*working on this too. Just gotta find the right veggies to make me and the rest of us happy
18. Plan meals in advance; use that information to make out a complete shopping list.
*doing it right! Only way to do it when you get paid only once a month
19. Give food to guests to take home.
*or make only enough for the 5 of us..... it works
20. Write down everything you eat and drink, without fail.
*i gues i'm chicken. But it'd sure be an eye opener wouldn't it. Something to get on my to-do list.
21. Plan ahead for special occasions by accounting for higher-calorie foods before you eat them.…
*it's sitting in the back on my mind... always

About Small Exercise Changes
1. Take the stairs every single time they're an option. No more elevators or escalators.
*i use the upstairs bathroom everytime i'm downstairs and the downstairs bathroom whenever i'm upstairs. And with all the water i'm drinking....... it's often
2. Make exercise a priority, not an inconvenience.
*working on it. That's where Kim comes into play ;-)
3. Park far from your destination so you're forced to walk. This works at the supermarket, the mall, wherever. (This also helps you waste less time looking for a parking space!)
*being in a small town, this isn't very easy. Especially since, well..... i don't really go anywhere
4. View tiring chores (shoveling snow, cleaning the house, weeding the garden, taking the garbage out, grocery shopping) as a chance to get in some activity.
*good idea.....
5. Take the grocery cart back to the store when you're done loading your bags into your car.
*i do when i'm kidless. Never thought of it with the kids...... do i really want to go there?
6. If you take public transportation, get off one stop early.
*N/A
7. Work out with a buddy.
*thank you Kim... even if you are a million states away.

Hopefully the little things will add up. Apparently i need all the help i can get.