Tuesday, February 27, 2007

ever have one of those days when you just need to sit down and have a good cry? I mean a really GOOD cry. I'm really having one of those days.

It seems as though everything is hitting me at once. I just want to go crawl in bed and disappear for a while. Not because i'm sad (although I can't really truefully say that because ignoring it isn't making it go away), but just because everything just seems too much to handle as of lately. You just want the world to stop just for a minute, but it just keeps on going and going and sometime it feels like it just goes faster. Everything is just flashhing through my head... my good times, my bad, my just in-betweeners. I just need to regroup a little bit. I need to sit back and let it take me over.

I ask me why i haven't yet. I can't, at least not the way i want to. I have a life that continues to move forward when i don't want to. I have children to depend on me who do not understand the need for me to just break down for a minute. That's it. Everything else can sit on the back burner but my children can't. So, here i sit, trying to hold it together. Because this is my release right now. And i guess it'll have to do and i'll survive through it all.

Monday, February 26, 2007

50 things about me...

1. Height? 5 ft 5 in
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? Nope
3. Do you own a real gun? yup - it was almost a prequesit for getting married into the family. They are a big hunting family
4. Favorite kind of music? i listen to just about anything. As long as i like it, i'll listen to it
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? usually but it mostly depends on what it's for
6. What do you think of hot dogs? love em' if i'm camping
7. What's your favorite kids movie? Popeye or Mary Poppins
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Mountain Dew or Crystal Light Ruby Red Cranberry
9. Can you do push ups? if i have to
10. Is your bathroom clean? pretty much... just my floor rugs are dirty
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? right now i don't have one. I'd love to say my wedding ring but i don't wear it cause i end up gouging one of the kids with it cause the diamond sticks out a ways
12. Do you like painkillers? as long as they knock me out
13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? my body.... ughhh whatever! LOL
14. Do you have A.D.D.? no
15.City and State you were born in? Tooele Utah
16. Middle Name? i don't have on unless you count my madien name and then it's McDonald (yes, as is Ol' McDonald had a farm.... and in real life... yes, my grandfather did own a farm! LOL)
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? how the kids are feeling, if DarRell is feeling any better while his dad is dragging him around at work (cause if he's not sick, then nobody is), how i'm going to get Rianne to dance with 2 other sick kids...hmmm how?
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought? taco shells, tomatoes, salsa
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink: crystal light, mountain dew, water
20. Name 3 of your favorite restaurants: Pepperbelly's, South China Cafe, Big Rock Candy Mountain resturaunt
21. Name 3 friends that you can talk to about anything. Kim, Lori, Kathleen
22. Current worry? why we can't shake all the winter sickies this year - we (as a whole) have been sick for 2+ months straight
23. Current hate? the winter sickies
24. Favorite place to be? downstairs in my scrapping corner
25. How did you bring in the New Year? sleeping
26. Where would you like to go? right now: anywhere to sleep. In the future: Europe
27. Do you own slippers? Of course... many pairs
28. What shirt are you wearing? a utah state football sweatshirt
29. Do you burn or tan? both
30. Favorite color(s)? yellow
31. Would you be a pirate? only if i was in close comfort w/Johnny Depp AKA captain Jack!
32. What kind of car do you drive? white ford extended cab truck, DarRell's old mini van (yes, it is his and he claims it)
33. What songs do you sing in the shower? I usually don't sing unless i've got something stuck in my head
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? i can't remember, probably my dad getting after us for talking at night when we were supposed to be sleeping
35. What's in your pockets right now? nothing
36. Last person that made you laugh? Samuel
37. Best bed sheets as a child? really thin cotton ones... crazy i know
38. Worst injury you've ever had? a flubbed up eptopic pregnancy
39. Last person to send you an Instant Message. Lori
40. How many TVs do you have in your house? 4
41. Who is your loudest friend? Kathleen
42. Who is your most silent friend? DarRell
43. Does someone have a crush on you? hmmm.... i don't know... there used to be!
44. Do you wish on shooting stars? wish? i don't know if i wish on them but i watch for them
45. Favorite book(s)? lately it's been adolecant readers or Dan Brown
46. What is your favorite candy. Chocolate, sugar coated cinnamin hearts or cherry sours
47. Do you prefer summer or winter? summer
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? am i really supposed to think about that?
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? cuddling a sick Daylon and listening to a sick Samuel sleeping
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up today? I don't think i got to sleep last night... but if i did get in a wink, it was probably... "I'M SO TIRED!!!!"

Sunday, February 25, 2007

a day wasted

I've spent the day, the WHOLE day messing around with my MP3 player. I'm just so irritated with it. I don't have a clue how to upload stuff on it except for the click and drag option that requires many many screens. I don't know what synchronize means either. I got my windows media player trying to get all the music between both computers put somewhere in the same place...but then somehow i lost it all! Not completely erased off my computers just NOT on my media player anymore....... it's just all so messed up!

And while all this is happening, i have 2... yes 2 of the 3 children, sick... again! I'm guessing it is that nasty stomach bug that Rianne sported for a week last week. Daylon has been complaining of a belly-ache all day long, feeling a bit naucious, and a turning stomach when he smells any food that isn't crackers and soda. Sam hasn't been himself for a few days and today he lost his lunch about 3 minutes after it went down. *SIGH* i really can't handle another week (or more) of sick kids. I think I've hit my stopping point. I've spent the last 2 months nursing 3 little kids back to health just to have them turn around a few days later with something new... and it's not just me and my kids.......... it's going around ALL over town! It's the flu, it's the stomach bug, it's strep throat, it's at least 3 different viral bugs on top of the ones I've mentioned... it just doesn't quit! WILL IT EVER STOP???

Ok - back to the MP3 player... I decided that i need some new songs on there. I need some really good suggestions. I'm not biased... i listen to pretty much anything. Throw some tune-age my way. My library is VERY outdated. The music is good but i need some "fresh blood" on there. Help me out!

and just for a laugh, watch this:

the funniest thing, besides the plain fact that it's Weird Al Yankavich, is that if you pay attention to it, you'll see Donny Osmond in the background dancing! It's hilarious! (and i really love the original song too).

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Well... that's interesting

what's your color code? find out here.

Turns out i'm white... but i guess i already knew that

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Congratulations. You are WHITE. WHITES are motivated by PEACE. They seek independence and require kindness. They resist confrontation at all costs. To them, feeling good is more important than being good. They are typically quiet by nature, process things very deeply and objectively with great clarity. Of all the colors, WHITES are the best listeners. They respect people who are direct but recoil from perceived hostility or verbal battle.

WHITES need their "alone time" and refuse to be controlled by others. WHITES want to do things their own way and in their own time. They ask little of others and resent others demanding much of them. WHITES are much stronger than people think, but are not often seen for their strength because they don't easily reveal their feelings. WHITES are even-tempered, diplomatic, and the voice of reason; but can also be indecisive, unexpressive, and silently stubborn. When others interact with you, as a WHITE you respond to them best if they are kind, accepting and supporting of your individuality, and if they look for non-verbal clues to understand your feelings.

Understand that no two WHITES are exactly alike. Although you share the same core motivation as many others, your personality is still unique to you alone.
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That tells you a LOT about me!

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

and we have TWO teefies....

ok - i don't do so well at the baby talk. But lookie here:
do you see those two cute pearly white teeth??? Ya, Sam is my last baby and i should be used to this but do you realize that he is the first to get teeth this early???? Daylon didn't get any until he was 14 months old! and Rianne, well she was 11 months old. Sam... look at him! he's 9 1/2 months old and sporting two! And not only that, he's got two more on the way! It's quite the milestone for me.

his newest thing? check this out... it cracks me up daily!
he stands at tht top of the stairs and just laughs and giggles! LOVE IT!

and just one more for good measure. I just want to eat him up!




Friday, February 16, 2007

Happy Valentines Day!!!

OK - so i know I'm a day (or two) late, but, as they say, better late than never right? I hope that all of you had a great lovin' day. Mine... well, it was less than that but not such a total disaster. Although its amazing how just a little kink in plans, even though they've been set for a MONTH, can just turn the mood... UGHH....... more of that to come later.

But i gotta share! This is what i made for Daylon and Rianne, their closest two friends and then three of their (geographically, because, although they have dozens on top of dozens of cousins, most of them live hours away) closest cousins.



I honestly wish i could take the credit for the idea but, honestly, my inspiration came from Two Peas In A Bucket. I have a love/hate relationship with that place, but truth be told, i get GREAT inspiration from there.

Anyways, the frappichino bottles full of goodies were a hit! Daylon, more than anyone, oogled and oggled over them (he's my sensitive, crafty kid) and immediately came and thanked me and gave me hugs when he found out they were from me... while i was in the shower! LOL I know that i can always give Daylon something hand-made and he'd appreciate it. Rianne is the same way, but only if you can use it later to haul, hold, or horde something in it!

DarRell, bless his heart, has finially gotten into the swing of things, and got me something for valenitines day (and *SHOCK* has for the last few years!). I really don't know what happened to him but i'm really liking the {new} him. This is what he got me:
can i just say HE ROCKS?! He got me some rooster canisters for my kitchen! and in barn red! And... he filled them with goodies! He really knows how to make my heart patter! Give me something practical but throw in the sugar! He's really a sweetheart isn't he!
ok... on to the rest of the night. Can i just say that i don't really trust most people with my baby Sam (LONG LONG LONG story behind that but lets just say i'm so glad i can stay home with my babies) and the few i do trust just drive me crazy when it comes to babysitting them. We've had DH's parents lined up for a month now to watch the kids while we went to the Fireman's Valentines dinner they have EVERY year. I fed the two older kids, had them in their jammies, and threw in a movie for them. I fed Sam, got him cleaned up, bathed, and put in his jammies and then tanked him up on milk and had a half of a bottle left over for them to give him if he needed more. Even had Sam's binkies all over the house where they could find them and had one even attached to him. I was NOT going to be accused of not having what they needed while they were gone. DarRell took the kids out kicking Valentines just before dinner and he came back and said "guess who's not home" (30 minutes before we had to leave) and i knew then that it was going to be one of those nights. 15 minuts to 7:00 and still no grandparents. DH calls them on their cell... no answer. 5 minutes to 7:00. They call us... they are on their way home. From where you ask? i have NO idea! I could have been from anywhere. 7:00 rolls around and still no sign of them... DH goes to the front porch and paces (mind you, his parents live NEXT door). 7:05 they finially show up. I tell them the kids are fed and fine... just watch them. I get the run around about Sam only needing what was left in his bottle because "how do you know that's all he will need?" UGHH! We walk out the door at 7:15pm, me cursing under my breath, and DarRell rolling his eyes. Good thing the Firehouse is only a block away.

Fireman's Dinner was great! Steak and King Crab Legs! Dutch oven potatoes, salad, and rolls. YUM! i skipped out on the steak and stuck with the crab legs, some salad, and a roll. Got miserably full off of crab (I don't think i could look at another crab leg for a while). Tried to fit in some desert, dutch oven peach cobbler and ice cream, but was only able to take a few bites. Chated a bit with everyone and then we figured we'd better go rescue the kids. We get home (just over a hour later) and the kids are watching their movie downstairs with grandma asleep on the couch. Grandpa upstairs chasing down Sam, who, is not even in the least amount sleepy! LOL. The Grandparents leave in a bit of a rush and DarRell and I take in a deep breath. We both agree that, although it's nice to go out, it's too much of a headache to deal with the "babysitters".

But... we did get a great picture of our night together:

and one of some of us just being goofy!

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

WHOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAJOR TOOT FOR ME!!!!!

WHOOOHOOOOO!!! I made it!!! I made the design team for School of Scrap! I am just beside myself! I feel like i actually did this on my own. No hanging on to someone else's shirt-tails and I didn't have someone "get" me on. I did this by myself. It totally makes me think that I'm good. Not in the "ya, you're good, but not worthy of anything" good or the "you are good. You are actually putting your pictures in books with creativity" good. I'm good!!! DT worthy good! WHOOO HOOOO!!!
I'm really bummed that some of the others that i think are terrific didn't make it on... but everyone was great! There was some SERIOUS competition there. I honestly didn't think i was going to make it... i didn't think i had what it takes to make it. But, then again, that is why SOS is SO great! They have ALL levels of scrappers on the DT and i LOVE that. SOS is the best that way... inspiration for everyone there!

And i gotta congratulate the others who made it:
Kimber (kimber)
Elisa (Elisa K)
Anna (zokyberyan)

I'm so excited to get into the swing of things... bring it on ladies!!!!!!! and please come visit! SOS RULES!

Saturday, February 10, 2007

ReaLly?



you know what? I've always been called a tomboy since i was a child. I've even had people mistake me as a boy growing up... ALL the time. I had the short hair. I was a skinny lanky girl. I was even a VERY late bloomer. I got used to it. And then i grew up.

So tell me this... why does it surprise me so much to see that my celebrity look-alike is a man? It didn't matter how many times i ran it, i always came up with the same guy as my number one celebrity look-alike. I do have to admit though...... he is hot! I was almost expecting to see Kelly Preston pop up there somewhere in the line-up only because once upon a time a dear, close to my heart friend told me that i looked like her... but NOPE! not there.

I guess it could be worse right? And really, its not all that bad. I think i can see the resemblance there. And, you know, there were a lot of really hottie girls in there! And... it was fun!

Thursday, February 8, 2007

Alexander and the Terrible,Horrible,No Good,Very Bad Day

Ok - really it should read: Jo and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day. Cause, seriously, it is.

It started yesterday actually. It was Wednesday... MY Wednesday. My get out of the house Wednesday. My get to go to a job that i LOVE if only for 3 hours Wednesday. And that is exactly what i did. I got to go to work. To a job that i absolutely love. And i got out of the house without a argument (EAK - long story there... and I'll only tell it if you REALLY want to know, otherwise I'm not going there). It was a good day at work, and i honestly wish the the auction was longer cause it was good to finally get out of the house without kids in tow! Three hours later i came home and traded with my DH (dear husband at this time... ever heard of foreshadowing?) and he goes back to work.

And can i just say how thankful i am that we are able to do this just so i can get out of the house and go to work on Wednesdays... if only for a few hours?

The day goes on, and on, and on. I start dinner at 5:00 making chicken and cheesy broccoli rice-a-roni per request from DH. 6:00 comes and goes and no sign of DH so i feed the kids cause they are "starving!" and surprisingly they scarfed up dinner with not much complaint WOW!!! That doesn't happen often! 6:30 comes and begins to go by and then DH comes through the door - FINALLY! He cleans up a bit and sits down to scarf down his dinner while i feed Sam.

Next thing i know, he says "got to go... fire meeting". Oh ya! Wednesdays are also Fire Meeting nights... and poker night.......UGHHHH!!!!!

So as he's getting ready to run out the door, i ask him: "are you staying for poker?"
he says: "Yes"
I say: "You got to be kidding me!"
he says: "Well..."
I say: "you just got home! You haven't even been home for a half hour and you are leaving again! AND you played poker Saterday! (still a VERY fresh wound on my part since he didn't get home till nearly 2am! - that's 7 hours of poker!!!!!! Not to mention that i had a sick little girl and a little baby boy who wouldn't sleep longer than 2 hours at a time)
he just sat there and looked at me.
Finially i said: " i don't care....... whatever!" (and we all know what that means right?)

So he leaves. I'm sitting here hoping that he'll at least feel guilty enough to come home and tuck the kids in. NOT! 8:30pm rolls around and i finally go tuck in the kids as they are crying cause dad isn't here to help..... YES! i am fuming at this point! I finially get tired and decide to call it a night at a little after 10pm and still no sign of DH (at this point the "dear" has changed into something a little bit more negative!). I've been here before so i know NOT to wait up for him. I actually considered shutting off ALL the lights and locking the doors on him just out of spite. I think better of it and just go to bed. I remember him coming in but i really don't remember when. I remember hearing Sam crying last night but i thought i'd get revenge on DH and make him get up with Sam... and i did. And just for spite, i decided that i'm still so angry with DH that i'd sleep in and make him get the kids up and ready for school on his own too... and i did! And it almost made me feel better. Just before he gets ready to leave for work/take Daylon to school, he brings in Sam.
I asked him when he got home...
he says "11 something"
I said "how was Sam last night?"
he said "he woke up at 12, drank 4 oz of milk, went down great. Up again at 5, drank another 4 oz of milk and then wouldn't go down! (YAYAYAY i'm thinking! serves you right! But too bad he didn't have one of those nights when he's up every 2 hours... ok - that's mean!) He finially went down at 5:30 (mind you, his alarm goes off at 6:00)". I have to hand it to him though... he got the kids ready and fed (minus Sam and Rianne's hair).

As he's walking out the door, i asked him if i'd see him tonight considering that he's been working till 6:30 every night. He told me "i don't know... dad's driving and we are working out of town today (thanks for the warning dear! - GRRRR). And just to be a horse's ass, i asked him if he was going to poker tonight. He said...... "well..... not tonight". NOT TONIGHT???? So what does that mean???? Tomarrow night? I've had it with being a single mom!!!!!! I REALLY need some alone time to do some scrapping..... I just might be Wicked Witch of the West and want to smash someone under a house (ok - not really... maybe).

Today is not looking to be too promicing as it is. Somebody please make it better!

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

{doing a little re-arranging}

i'm doing a little re-arranging right now...

I'd hate for all my journaling prompts to take up all the room on this blog so i made another one just for my journaling prompts.

You can find them here at any time: School of Scrap History Journaling Prompts

Decisions Decisions

This thursday i'm going to have to make a HUGE decision. Ok - it isn't life threatening or anything but it's pretty huge in the TV scheme of things. I'm going to have to choose between Ugly Betty and Survivor: Fiji



or



that's a pretty tough decision. I'm sure it'll be Survivor: Fiji that wins and i'll just watch Ugly Betty on Friday on the net... but... *SIGH* i hate to make decisions like that! And then, of course, there is Grey's Anatomy - DO NOT MISS THIS SHOW!!!!

On another TV note, Tuesdays are just the best tv days for me!!!!!
7:00: NCIS or American Idol (another decision i'd rather not make!)
8:00: House
9:00: Boston Legal
I'm going to be in heaven tonight! And can i just say... Boston Legal just RULES! I just started watching it this year because i thought it looked stupid. I'm not a big fan of Candace Bergen, William Shatner, or James Spader. But this show... I LOVE them all! The whole cast is amazing! Everyone is just so quirky and weird and it all just works so well together. One of my "must-not miss" shows (along with Grey's Anatomy of course!)

journal prompt #6

February 6: What was the last adult conversation you had -- that was not about your kids and who was it with??? last night at about 3:00am with DH. He had just gotten back from a fire call. I hate it when he gets called out on fires and so i'm always wanting to know how things went. When he got called out it was for a home fire alarm going off and we were in another blackout (weird but that was the second in 24 hours and pretty wide-spread) so i was REALLY nervous and needed to know details... turns out it was just a low battery in a fire detector during the blackout... WHEW!

Monday, February 5, 2007

another history journaling prompt

February 5: Did you have a childhood nickname? Did it stick with you? Was it embarassing -- or did you not mind it? my nickname growing up was Joey. It started out because it was short for Jolynn but it mostly stuck because i was such a tomboy growing up. I actually still go by it. My closest friends, my family, my DH and some of his siblings call me by that. I had another one growing up that really bothered me... Slow Jo. HATED IT!!! But now looking back, i know why they called me that if i was anything like my own children are now. The more i tell them to hurry, the slower they get......... DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!!!!!!!

more history prompts...

February 3: It is Saturday and although I am at work we are reminiscing a lot this morning-- so tell me what you remember most about Saturday morning as a child. you know... i don't really remember much about Saturdays growing up. I do remember watching cartoons on Saturday but i also remember my dad not letting us watch them. But, i do remember him watching wrestling and us watching along with him (back in the days of Hulk Hogan, Junkyard Dog and the Sheik OHHHH - i soooo remember the fight between the Sheik and Hulk Hogan where a body part was bitten off Hulk by the Sheik..... so disturbing.... mostly because my sister sat there and cried the whole time!). I also remember watching something like "world wide sports" or something like that and something about animals.....with the GrisslyAdams look alike... geez, i wish i could remember the names to these shows. It's going to drive me INSANE if i don't figure them out. If anyone knows the ones I'm talking about, let me know!

Otherwise, I'll be searching the net over
trying to figure it out... and I'll post it when i have it figured out!

ETA

ok figured it out!!!
the sports show: Wide World Of Sports with Jim McKay
"Spanning the globe to bring you the constant variety of sport… the thrill of victory… and the agony of defeat… the human drama of athletic competition… this is ABC's Wide World of Sports!"

ahhhhh - those were the days!

the animal show: Marty Stouffer's Wild America - Gosh i just LOVED that show! I'm still a animal documentary freak! I really miss that show. I remember just loving Marty Stouffer. He had such a distinct voice and i thought he was just SO handsome! I remember being glued to the TV everytime that show came on.

February 4: SUPERBOWL SUNDAY-- I love football but I know most of you probably don't. Either way I want to talk about football today. I will leave this a little open you can either journal about your being a football widow- what you did for the big game-- or how much you just love football in general -- like me who watches it more that dh( hes not a sports nut). OHHHHH football! I've got some great memories of football growing up! My dad and us (my sisters and my brother) use to place bets with my dad on who would win in that particular game. It seemed like it was every weekend we would do this. Who ever won would have to buy the other a ice cream sundae from Artic Circle (they had awesome football helmet cups during football season). We always wanted to be the one placing the bet that weekend because it didn't matter if we lost or we won, we'd always get a sundae too! I remember not knowing a single thing about football though. Not until recently, did i understand even the slightest thing about football. Nowadays, i love to watch the super bowl but mostly for the commercials. Although... last night game was AWESOME! Lots of action all the way around! And i LOVE that they played right through all the soaking rain! I'm kinda bummed that the Bears didn't win... i was really rooting for the underdog, and i remember the last time the Bears were in the Super Bowl... I'm sure it was one of those ice cream sundae bets!




Sunday, February 4, 2007

I {love} mornings like this

I absolutely LOVE mornings like this! All the kids are in good moods and want to play.


Sam absolutely LOVES to be with the kids on the big bed. This picture totally reminded me this: The Effer Dares #56. THIS is my picture!



Well not THE picture... this one is THE picture: Ok, actually, i can't choose between these two...... they are both soooo cute and just over 2 months apart.

I really LOVE this one. I love how all 3 are happy and laughing! And Sam has the biggest smile ever! LOVE IT!


Saturday, February 3, 2007

SOS journaling prompts!

The School of Scrap has got all these GREAT classes! One of them is called history where they have journaling prompts every day. GREAT IDEA! i'm not much for journaling in my everyday life or in my scrapbooking but i do know that it is important. SO... i thought i'd try to at least start on it... if i keep it up, YAY for me. If i don't... i need someone to kick me in the pants! LOL

Ok - the real reason for this journaling post. Lisa posted a blogger challenge. "For those that blog... and those that don't, go start one today! Challenges will be coming to help you with inspiration to blog! First challenge........... Go to History Class and pick ONE journaling prompt from last week and blog about it. " So here i am... i'm always up for challenges. Most times my life gets in the way of my life and i'm not able to finish up my challenges but I do start them in the best of intentions.

Here are the prompts for the last few days:
February 1: When was the last time you cried and why? Was it a happy cry, a sad cry or more of a mad and angry cry???
February 2: Do you prefer to take the stairs, escalator or elevator- Why??

I'm going to try to do keep track of the prompts here, it's just the perfect place to do it right? Ok - so here i go:

February 1: When was the last time your cried and why? Was it a happy cry, a sad cry or more of a mad and angry cry??? The last time i cried... hmmm... Right off the top of my head... a few days ago... maybe it was yesterday, i was online and was watching something about American Idol. A 65 gentleman came on who's wife was battling cancer. He ran a petition to be able to get on AI and sing, mind you that the cut off age is 28. He found out he got the audition days before she died, and his audition was days after she died. They let him come on and sing. He sang "you belong to me" (which i absolutely LOVE - it's the one playing right now... only this one is sung by Lifehouse) and did a totally stellar job of it. Totally a sobbing moment for me... I'm just so emotional about things like this!

I'm just a emotional person... anything can make me cry. I'm a angry crier too. When i get angry or mad, i just cry. I don't confront anyone well cause it usually means that I'm going to bawl like a baby and that just throws out LOTS of mixed messages and it's usually the wrong one i want to get out.


February 2: Do you prefer to take the stairs, escalator or elevator- Why?? I actually prefer to take the escalator. Why? Cause it's just too much dang fun! I'd ride them all day long if i could! There's just something about being able to go somewhere and have your mind be able to be somewhere else at the same time. I get that little jitter in the pit of my stomach every time i get on one to ride, scared to death it's going to eat up my foot or that I'll trip on it or something like that, but i LOVE that little adrenaline rush. If there's not a escaltor to ride, i'd go for the elevator... for that same little adrenaline rush. It's not quite as good though cause i have a small fear of being stuck in one of those with a bunch of sick people (ya - i've had to ride on full ones full of sickie people at a hospital when i was pregnant... just not a fun experience!), or just being stuck in one. I know i should take stairs and i'll definately take the stairs over a elevator if the stairs are opened up like in a mall or something like that. But stairs in general are just kinda creepy. They remind me of movie clips where the bad guys are lurking to jump out at you at the next turn, or they are shooting down at you while you are running up them. But then again, sometimes that's the place where the hot sultry love scenes happen too (ohhhh...... they do in the elevators too - hmmmm....... might have to rethink that one)! OHHHHH......... that so reminds me of one on Gray's Anatomy!!!!! I'd have to have a hot hunky one on my side for me to take a staircase like that though!


did i mention that he reminds me of my oh so hot hubby???? mmmmmmmmm........ yummy!

He's been told he looks like this guy too, you know Dylan McDermott! I don't quite see it, but !WOW! if everyone else does!: